no turning back

2009-01-03T19:29:00.000+08:00

This blogger is permanently out of service, for good.

2008-12-10T16:03:00.002+08:00

Oh shit, i think RSAF called me today. They rang me at 10 in the morning when i was still asleep. It's gotta be regarding my application. I tried to call them back but the number doesn't seem to be available. I checked the website and the number was kind of similar. So i thought it's gotta be them. This really sucks man. I gotta wake up early from now on. Sucks sucks sucks!!!

2008-12-08T01:29:00.000+08:00

I think she just gave me a 'no'.
=(

2008-12-03T22:36:00.001+08:00

A night definitely to remember, but i didn't bring my cam. Sucks.

2008-11-29T22:21:00.002+08:00

Grad night is on its way. I'm so not looking forward to it, man. I haven't even went for shopping. I haven't even thought of what i should wear. I just don't have the grad night feeling, not now. How? What the hell should i do? I was thinking of buying just a black pants, white collared long-sleeved shirt and just put on my bowtie and the black jacket i used last year. Mmm.

2008-11-29T20:48:00.000+08:00

wendy oh wendy, wherever you are.

2008-11-29T19:40:00.000+08:00

enrolling is the only way for me to get my life rollin' now

2008-11-28T18:45:00.002+08:00

It was really a mere coincidence. I was in bus service 19o on my way home from choa chu kang interchange. Wendy was in the same bus as me and i didn't notice her until i saw a girl wearing a PJC uniform. I was thinking to myself as to who would go to school in the middle of a very long school break. I looked up and it was wendy! She was standing right in front of me with her friend. She noticed me but i quickly looked away. Smart me. Her hair is longer and it really looks nice and cute on her. I managed to hear her voice because she was quite close and so sweet it was. Gosh, how i wish i can see her again.

2008-11-26T05:36:00.001+08:00

the most boring thing that you would always encounter when watching a football match is when you were expecting a scoreline but it all turns out to be a draw.

2008-11-24T21:08:00.002+08:00

Today's a nightmare for me. I woke up feeling rather weird. My chest felt as though there was something in it, wanting to surface. I wanted to vomit but i couldn't. That was when i thought of the one and only person who could be of the most help, my friend, aifah. She's a nurse so i'm sure she'll be able to help me. And she advised me to drink lots of warm water and i did. I didn't drink lots but only a mug of warm water. I could feel the effects instantaneously. The contents in my body were rushing out and i had to run to the washroom and it all happened. I felt better and lighter, and that there is nothing putting pressure on my body. To add to this, i didn't have the appetite. Even till now, i haven't been eating. I guess i'll eat later. A bad day it was for me.

2008-11-24T04:39:00.000+08:00

This is not me, this is a motherfuckin' decoy.

2008-11-23T03:34:00.003+08:00

Though berbatov had recently joined the squad, you can really see a change in how the players play in his absence. An example was the match against Aston Villa which had just ended. Passing was horrendous, chances not well taken, especially the one which rooney could have easily smacked that ball through the net which he did not. Fuck him. In conclusion, i think Man Utd played horribly today. You could see that without berbatov, there wasn't any well-anticipated passes and crosses. Man Utd failed to take advantage of the fact that chelsea and liverpool were held back, and arsenal, oh well, had lost.

2008-11-22T19:32:00.002+08:00

I just hate to be at home. Trust me, there's no peace. Not that they're fighting, but there's really no peace. I'm very sure i'll be getting a job soon after my class chalet. I can't imagine what will be of me for the next few months.

2008-11-21T22:18:00.002+08:00

I aim high, and when i succeed to be on the desired path, i failed in the end. Maybe i aim too high. I have to learn that, to succeed, you gotta start small. Just like doing a business. You've just entered the market and you want to compete with Walmart? Trust me, you're just digging your own grave, mate. Hence, i've learnt that to be a pilot, it'd take me more than just a few years. I gotta start from, perhaps, other vocations below pilot. As time passes by, i would slowly upgrade myself and in time to come, i would sit in that cockpit maneuvering my aircraft. So Suhaimi, be patient alright? This is the world that you live in. Things don't go your way in the short run, but in the long run, when all things are varied, you may realise that things are actually going your way after all.

2008-11-19T14:39:00.002+08:00

It's been over 3 years now, has definitely left a hole in my heart. Now who's to close it? I just feel so lonely. I know, i have friends around me so how the heck can i get lonely right? That's not what i meant. I just don't have the person anymore. The person whom i can talk to everyday, share our feelings, one whom i can quarrel with and one whom i could say mushy words to. It may not be necessary at this point of time because all our parents want us to do is study first, love later. I just wanna use up all my 1000 sms'es, texting that special person whom i do not know for now. I'm not feeling bored, but i'm just lonely. Really lonely. I hope, the next person i'll be with, will be my life-long partner and just stop my 'ex' meter. I hope. That's all i can assure.

Sentosa Trip After Last Paper Of A's

2008-11-19T00:20:00.003+08:00

2008-11-15T02:37:00.002+08:00

I just want to eat at all the fast food restaurants in one single day. Especially in kfc. The smell of the well-bred chicken is just haunting me. I felt as thought they were just right in front of me. But realised i was hallucinating. I want to eat everything but i have to limit myself. School will end soon, very soon. and i'm not sure if i'll still get my allowance after that.

numbcrush

2008-11-13T23:54:00.002+08:00

2008-11-10T22:12:00.001+08:00

Oh god, i pray to you that all my hard effort preparing for my A levels would eventually produce me the kind of results that i've been longing for. I know that sometimes, shit happens and you don't usually get what you truly want. But at least, i'd be glad if i could get somewhere near my target.

2008-11-09T11:24:00.003+08:00

This is what i mean. People just don't understand what and how i feel. The situation has always been complex to me. Imagine it being more complex. When i face a problem, i don't only think of the problem but also the other things that surround it. Ya, you might think i'm too emotional but this is my way of solving problems. This is the only thing you can say about me. Emo emo emo. That's all you can say, right? Fine. At least i don't usually give a damn when you tell me to my face. I'm constantly aware of the many things that occur around me as a result of one's behaviour.

2008-11-08T23:02:00.002+08:00

This is the world that i live in. Why am i a such good person inside? I always feel the need to apologize, even though it was not entirely my fault. Why do i even bother to ponder over what happened? Why can't i just let it be? Point is, there has been numerous injustice against me and furthermore, these injustice were done by the ones i care. I always feel the need for peace, not only for me but for everyone. Why can't we just live in a world of smiles and giggles? It is acceptable to me for what they've done to me. But when i just give them a little of what i've got, it's not acceptable to them. And i always feel bad having to reserve a seat for someone. It makes me feel inconsiderate. Imagine in a place that is as crowded as hell, and you were just putting your stuff on the table to reserve it for your friend. It's okay if it'll be for a while, but if it's forever, i'm forever not fuckin' okay with it. Moreover, when your mood is already on the brink of just releasing all the curses you have in your heart after walking round the whole damn place looking for a seat so that i can do my work comfortably, you can just explode anytime. Sometimes, it's hard for me to decide who should apologize. And eventually, i'm always the one to do so. Sigh.

2008-11-02T03:40:00.003+08:00

I know there's no hiding from this feeling. I'm sure at this point of time, everyone is feeling scared. This is the disadvantage of being a JC student. You'll be facing the biggest, most significant examination in your whole life. Being a JC student, sets you apart from the other non-JC students. By going into a JC, you have made up your mind that you are aiming for a university. And situation today seems that you must have outstanding grades to be able to get into the course that you want. Hence, by getting none other than A's or B's, it would really get us nowhere. Situation gets bad especially for the guys. We have our NS to accomplish which takes up approx 2 years of our life. A lot can happen in these 2 years. For those of us who do not do well for our A's, within 2 years, we can re-take the A's twice. Sigh. I don't know what's gonna happen. I'm just scared, not just, but REALLY scared. My A' level grades will determine how and what i'll do in the next 2o years. This sucks.

2008-11-02T00:58:00.002+08:00

I idolise C.Ronaldo but sometimes or rather all the time, he should be aware that Manchester United is not equal to Cristiano Ronaldo. He, being a winger, should have a mindset of architecturing goals more than seeking one. What I like about Chelsea is that they play as a team, providing each other crosses and passes very well. I'm sure, Man Utd will bloom tremendously. Just trust me. And 4-3 against Hull City was an act of complacency and finishing in the 2nd-half sucked big time.

2008-10-30T05:08:00.001+08:00

One day, i'll buy a land in England near Heathrow Airport and probably own a private jet..

2008-10-29T00:07:00.001+08:00

A7X CONCERT 2008

2008-10-26T22:43:00.001+08:00

2008-10-20T21:29:00.001+08:00

Oh man, muttons pronounced my name wrongly. Instead of saying it as Ai-mi, they said Amy. Gosh, it sounded like a girl's name. Haha, anyway muttons, thanks for playing the song whoa oh by we the sickest kids. =p

2008-10-19T01:16:00.002+08:00

After years of hoping, finally we meet. I couldn't get my eyes off you nor do i want to make it obvious. I have been wondering why you left me. And do you still have that feeling. I still don't believe you don't. I still believe that you left me not because there wasn't love. Just why?

2008-10-15T23:42:00.002+08:00

I've been coughing nowadays. I can't have a minute of peace and silence. I bet everyone around me can't as well. I can't sing, i can't speak properly(i gotta stop, cough, and then continue). It used to happen before but that was a long time ago. I don't know how long will this series of coughs last. I hope before A levels. My chest is exploding every time i cough. What's wrong with me.

2008-10-15T20:12:00.000+08:00

2008-10-14T22:27:00.000+08:00

I f-ing stoned again today

2008-10-13T23:14:00.002+08:00

Somebody save me!!! I didn't know what to study nowadays. I'm always preoccupied with thinking of what to study instead of really studying something. This sucks, terribly.

2008-10-12T15:00:00.001+08:00

As usual, hari raya with my fellow WSSS friends yesterday was f-ing awesome. It was certainly the best day of the entire year. How i wish the night never ended.

2008-10-10T22:05:00.002+08:00

2008-10-09T21:37:00.001+08:00

2008-10-06T02:51:00.002+08:00

I just came back from a very tired and rather torturous day. I was consistently being tortured by the queen. Hehe. I have to do everything she says, i have to like what she likes. You might say that i had a choice. But no i didn't have one. She had my most prized possession, and she held it hostage. So she used it to blackmail me into doing what she wants me to do. This won't happen again. Haha. Watch out..

ps. you'll really look cute driving the 'huge' van. hehe.

2008-10-02T21:36:00.002+08:00

I'm still not getting them right now. This will be the last and final examination that would prove how well i'll do in the A levels. There is really a huge gap between what i'm actually getting now, and what i want to get for A levels. What do i have to do? Anyone out there who can help me out? How should i put aside my distractions and stop procrastinating. I don't have much time left. The gateway to my dream is closing, real fast. I need to get pass it.

2008-09-30T05:24:00.000+08:00

2008-09-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

You'll be the princess
and i'll be the prince

2008-09-29T18:33:00.002+08:00

2008-09-28T00:45:00.000+08:00

Just how much longer can your arrogance last?

2008-09-27T19:52:00.001+08:00

that is just wow

2008-09-26T00:36:00.000+08:00

2008-09-25T18:52:00.002+08:00

I have to blog about this. I'm really pissed off with myself. I just lack the courage. She took the same bus as me when i was going home just now. She found a seat and there was an empty seat beside her and it happened that i was moving towards that seat. I just couldn't pluck up the courage to sit rest my ass on that seat right next to her. My heart was already beating superbly fast when i was walking pass her in the bus. Imagine if i would have grabbed that seat, i bet my chest would burst due to the high-amplitude oscillation underneath. It was a chance, which obviously i should have taken. There was no other reason why i could not take that f-ing chance. I'm just a coward son of a gun. Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-24T22:34:00.002+08:00

I'm glad i was able to see her today. As usual, she's as sweet as ever. Her innocent looks mesmerized and hypnotised me totally. I noticed something different about her appearance today. Her hair seems to be shiny black. It didn't look like the ordinary and natural black. So i guess she blackened her hair during the break or something. I no longer see the partially brown ponytail. Anyway, compulsary night study is back. That was the first f-ing announcement i heard the moment i stepped into the school. I'm neutrally alright with the re-commendment of the night study programme but for the compulsary ones, f-ing no. I just don't like it. I could imagine myself not staying back for most of them and my CT approaching me for reasons for not doing so. Sigh. Back to square one, i think. Nevermind, i shouldn't release my temper as it's still the fasting month so i have to learn to control my feelings and emotions. I hope i could still do that after this month.

2008-09-21T23:12:00.000+08:00

still not convincing, man utd

2008-09-21T21:58:00.000+08:00

I'm no longer being lingered by the burden. Ticket is bought. Yeah!

2008-09-21T00:38:00.000+08:00

2008-09-20T01:14:00.001+08:00

_pieces don't fit anymore - james morrison

2008-09-19T20:23:00.003+08:00

My crush for her is fading away..

_crush - david archuleta

2008-09-19T00:11:00.000+08:00

You may feel that you're not perfect
But deep inside, i know you're perfect.

2008-09-17T02:28:00.002+08:00

Man, i just can't wait for them to come to Singapore.

_afterlife - avenged sevenfold

2008-09-16T01:14:00.002+08:00

Oh my god, these pictures are really classic. 07S29.

2008-09-15T18:30:00.001+08:00

I guess there's no use in trying
when the pieces don't fit anymore

2008-09-14T23:11:00.000+08:00

how can i move on when i'm still in love with you

2008-09-14T17:08:00.003+08:00

I really miss her. I managed to chat with her, for 2 straight hours last night. The feeling was great. It's really been a long time since i last talked to her so cheerfully. I can't help smiling at every text she typed. To be honest, it was 3 years since we parted. She's found her one and i've yet to find mine. I guess i'll never, at least not now. Sigh, how i wish there is still chance for us.

Anyway, Avenged Sevenfold is visiting us in October. To all their fans, for more information on the ticket pricings, etc, click here.

2008-09-14T01:24:00.001+08:00

Tonight will be the night that i will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
A girl like you is impossible to find

2008-09-13T21:46:00.003+08:00

Man Utd seriously need to get back their form and style of playing. I feel kinda sad for Berbatov though. He did not manage to show what he is good at. But no worries, maybe this season is not theirs. What matters most to us fans is that they maintain their consistency. We are really looking forward to the day when Ronaldo enters the pitch and the whole team would be groomed with confidence once again and the Man Utd fans start to roar.

2008-09-11T03:03:00.000+08:00

2008-09-07T19:38:00.002+08:00

Gosh, i think i'm beginning to feel her as a necessity. No, that can't happen.

2008-08-29T21:20:00.002+08:00

The key to success to beat your own records and make sure keep beating them. This means to say that you should compete with your ownself, your own grades, and make sure for every test or examination, you'll get higher than your previous grade. It does not stop here, you should consistently beat your new records until you arrive at a point of time when you realize that you have subconsciously overtaken the rest. That is when you would feel the endless satisfaction you've never felt before in your whole life.

2008-08-24T00:54:00.001+08:00

I'm starting to feel a twitch of confidence. I know it has never gone back on me. I can do it.

2008-08-19T21:30:00.004+08:00

Nothing felt worse than being fucked up. I don't feel okay today. Something was just wrong. I'm emotionally unstable, i can't control my emotions from being leaked out. It felt as if i was perturbed over something but, what the fuck is it? Furthermore, today was really fucked. It all started during my break, i was dealt with a hard blow. Then in class, i uncontrollably screamed out each and every bit of my feelings with just 2 words: fuck off!!! Besides that, i was even being sounded by the GP **tch, for not attending the fuckin' night class, when i already opted for a change. I already told you that i wanted to change, and i don't recall you fuckin' tell me to seek her approval about it when she already told me to seek yours. Just what the fuck is this? And do you think being emo is something which is called for? Do you think that if you can be emo whenever you feel like? Let me tell you something. You're fucked up. There is a lot more than just being quiet and keeping to yourself. That's that.

The Dream

2008-08-17T13:48:00.002+08:00

I just woke up from my sleep a few minutes ago and i've decided to post this. When i woke up, i realized that my eyes were wet, as if i had been crying. So here's what happened. I was in a strange place. I could see a wide field, full of small kids and some adults. And the small kids were practising with their bow and arrow? It's kinda random so i can't link them. Then everybody started running so i followed suit. While i was running, a kid beside me asked if the tree is firm. I was speechless for a moment(who wouldn't be) and then i told him the answer about how the tree is firm due to the deep roots. And then, i have no idea how, the kid told an older person(seems like my dad) that i was looking for someone, my ex-girlfriend. I was like, 'HUH! I didn't say that.' Soon, i arrived at some sort of a village, i could see cottages. I came across one, looked at my reflection through the window of one of the cottages and suddenly an old lady came out: my grandmother. She asked why i'm feeling sad and down. Of course, i said i wasn't. But she somehow knew that i have been feeling sad and she invited me in. I sat down and started crying. '????'. So i was crying about my mum? She has been sick and on bed for quite a while. I haven't been taking good care of her. My grandmother consoled me and poof! I was awake. And had tears in my eyes, some were dripping down my cheeks. So, i was crying both in my dreams and also in the real world?

2008-08-16T22:35:00.003+08:00

A cute encounter
I was with jingyi at the mac at CWP. There was a lil girl of age between 2 to 4 beside us. I had nothing to do so i decided to blink and smile at the girl. I expected her to look away but instead, she mimicked me. The same actions. I thought it was only a random thing by her. So i told jingyi and showed her. She mimicked again. The thing is, she was damn smart. Very very, too smart. And furthermore, when her mum was far away from her, instead of shouting 'Mummy!', she called her mum by making the whistling sound that guys typically do to attract girls: wee-weet. Haha. I was laughing all the way(silently). I reckon she would be a very smart and intelligent girl when she grows up. =)

2008-08-13T01:42:00.002+08:00

Jingyi is just an extraordinary girl. I still can't believe i keep losing when it comes to eating ie. finishing meal in the least possible time. Haha. No offence uh.

2008-08-11T22:27:00.002+08:00

I despise the fact that i have to put on a mask before i lift my feet across the doorstep.

2008-08-03T20:53:00.000+08:00

Some people say, you will undergo failure to succeed. I wonder if this is even applicable in my case.

2008-07-25T23:25:00.003+08:00

I received a double blow today. First of all, i've disappointed my parents. They came for a meeting with my teacher today, and everything was one hell of a screw up. Tried my very best to hide the emo feeling from my friends to avoid any unnecessary commotion. I've never shed a single tear until today. I thought i was the saddest man on the planet right now. Then, i reached home and received a letter from air force. I won't receive the letter if i'm accepted of the post. So you get what i mean. Like i mentioned in my previous posts, journey to my dream always end in the middle of the path and it just did. I just can't think of any alternative right now. I've never thought of any before. I've disappointed my parents, and my friends who gave me incessant support and encouragement to become a pilot, and not to forget, i've disappointed myself totally. Now, i have every fuckin' reason to be emo. I guess it's time for me to remove the badge. I'm terribly sorry i've let all of you down.

2008-07-22T17:35:00.002+08:00

I'm really feeling scared as the days progress. I don't know whether i'll be accepted by the military and be sent for training overseas after my basic training. To be certain, i would very much like that to happen. I'm certain of every decision i make, it will lead to where i want it to be. But sometimes, it's not in your hands. It's in THEIR hands. Argh! I guess i'm the only person in this world who is experiencing the highest degree of the word 'SCARED'. I've never been so timid like this before.

2008-07-19T15:26:00.000+08:00

probably getting a new bag next week..

2008-07-17T20:06:00.002+08:00

i've brought pain ever since..to myself and to them. I don't think i can hold on much longer. My friends from polytecnic are doing way better than me. And i seem to progress much slowly. I just wanna be free from this torture chamber.

2008-07-16T23:07:00.002+08:00

"If you can't hold on, let it go and come back in your heart.
And if you can't hold on, maybe it's not time for you
But if you can't hold on, on your very last try
I'll be there in the morning to pull you through"

2008-07-16T23:02:00.002+08:00

So far, i've been successful in aligning myself with the path of my dreams. But something has been consistently happening. I've never went pass the centrepoint of the journey. I will be blown by strong sudden wind that pushes me away from the path. It has happened twice. And i'm afraid that it might happen for the third time. I feel that i did relatively bad for the compass test. It's just my feeling. But i need to keep a positive mindset and that whatever the outcome, has its reasons. God obviously wants to prove something to us, whenever we fail in achieving something. And it's up to us to find the answers to our questions.

2008-07-14T19:19:00.002+08:00

The aptitude test is nearing. I don't know how to get myself prepared besides having an early sleep. I've been with my flight simulator since. Hope it'd be of a great help on the day itself. Man, i'm really really nervous. There's no other word to describe how i feel. It's a pilot test, mind you. I have to do it well and be shortlisted for an interview. Argh! This means that i'll not come to school this wednesday. And considering whether i should come back to school for the econs lecture. I've set a mentality that i'd not skip any additional lessons cause A levels is nearing and i'm still not getting that quality grades. I pity S29 as a whole including me. We have been among the lowest since last year. We are determined to be the best, at least the most improved class. So God, i pray that you wish us all the best. And also, i pray that i'd do above average for the aptitude test. Amin.

2008-07-09T17:19:00.000+08:00

I have every reason to be emo..

2008-07-07T19:35:00.002+08:00

Why do different people of different religions see various kind of ghosts? For example, the christians, if they are fortunate enough, they would see ghosts in the form of spirits lurking around their neighbourhood. For muslims, we would see ghosts such as pochong, a ghost which hops in small steps and also covered with white cloth that is used to wrap a corpse prior to their burial. As for the chinese people(i don't know how many religions they have), they would see ghosts, also like the pochong, but the ghost wears a hat and a chinese suit i think. Whatever it is, what does this mean? Doesn't the word 'ghost' carry only one definition? A wandering spirit? So who is right? Or neither is right. And that there is no such thing as ghost. It only has something to do with the situation at that point of time and how vulnerable your imaginations can get. Others who don't believe in ghosts believe in them when they get to see them right in front of their eyes. Why do those ghosts appear in front of them only when they ask for it? So give yourself some time to sit down and ponder this. Ghosts..do they really exist?

this is just way too cool

2008-07-05T14:38:00.001+08:00

2008-07-04T14:20:00.003+08:00

My GC was stolen today, in the mosque. This increasing trend of theft cases is really annoying to people who go to mosque with peace and sincerity hoping that nothing bad will happen to them. A good example is me. An essential and something that plays a big part of me has just been stolen by some fuckers whom instead of praying with the group, they sneaked and opened people's belongings and grab whatever they see appealing. They would even grab the whole bag or sandals. This people are ruthless and i don't think they are even afraid of the consequences of what they're doing. I don't even think they know the concepts of ISLAM well. They even dare to steal in the holy vicinity. FUCK THEM! Curse them over and over again.

2008-07-02T20:37:00.002+08:00

Finished my last paper today: Physics. I find that paper 2 was quite okay and i could pass it. However, paper 1 was a menace. And i felt there is something wrong with the duration. I didn't get to think through all the questions let alone finishing it. I find that the time was too short. What the hell. Everyone was like moaning and groaning about it.

2008-07-02T00:18:00.002+08:00

It'll be my last subject later. Physics it is. It is the last paper. So many people would give all their best, mug for the entire day, etc. For the first time, i suddenly feel unmotivated to do all those. Maybe because of the previous papers that i did. Especially math. The questions looked damn easy but when you start writing on the paper, you'll be thinking over and over again why you can't get it right. This is math in JC. You will use 5 times more paper than you use in secondary school. I'd like to get it over with and start preparations for A level. I can do it, i know i can.

2008-06-29T01:42:00.002+08:00

I've been practising my landing with a cessna. I've tried flying the military aircrafts and boy, those mechanical birds are easy to takeoff and bank at extraordinary angles but exceptionally difficult to land it, especially at the ideal velocity as you approach the runway. Never mind, i will get the hang of it as i keep practise.

2008-06-26T22:39:00.003+08:00

I received a letter from RSAF few days ago. I was really anxious upon opening it because it could be that my application wasn't successful. And i was in fact being asked to sit for the COMPASS(Computerised Aptitude Selection System) test. The aim of the test is to test your basic understanding of coordinates, direction(whether you can determine your left and right at different perspectives) and also your hand and leg coordination and most importantly, your IQ. I was so relieved to even get this letter. This is a chance that is only going to come by once in a lifetime. I've been given a chance, and i should not waste it. I pray that i'd do above average for this test. Thank you God and also RSAF.

2008-06-24T17:41:00.002+08:00

FAILED
I've failed today. I am supposed to spend a maximum of 3.50 today but temptations ran wild and i spent 6 bucks to be exact, in kfc. Not only that, i was about to go home when the rest called me up to catch a movie. I refused but my friend urged me to go and i felt bad to resist them and hence i went. I ended up loaning 7 bucks from weicheng. Damn it. Now, i'm left with 2 bucks. Let's see what i can do with it this.

2008-06-23T20:26:00.003+08:00

I just got this week's allowance. And guess what, it's all gone now. It's all gone to the economy, just like that. Here's what i spent on today. Basically 10 bucks on food and beverages. And 55 bucks on a bloody joystick. And 6 bucks on topping up of ezlink card. Moreover, i wasted my precious time. I spent 2 hours going to BPP, lot 1 and causeway point just to search for a joystick. What pissed me off was, it has become exceptionally difficult to find even the most simplest joystick, i mean the buttons, etc. Even PC ZONE from all 3 shopping malls, don't sell it. I went from shop to shop asking whether they have joysticks on sale and a bloody NO was their answers. I fancied one when i last went to causeway point which was a month ago? And when i went there today, it was gone. I just don't know what these shops are up to. Sickening. To sum it all up, i have approximately 7 bucks left for this week. I have to go school tmr and thursday. So that means 3.50 for each. Can i make it?
I have no choice but to be a bit of a miser now. Everything seems to be going up: price. Economy is experiencing inflation and we consumers are adversely affected, no doubt. So we have to change the way we spent our money. That's what i'm going to do. I will never gonna spend on unnecessary items that can't benefit me. At least for the joystick, i can practise my flying skills. So to all of you out there, it's time to save. Inflation rates are going up, but no worries, interest rates are going up too. For every 100 bucks you deposit into your bank account, maybe you'll gain more from it now.

2008-06-19T15:10:00.002+08:00

I can't believe i've been waking up late for the past few days. I've been waking up at 2 plus in the afternoon, simply because of Euro 2008. Now, the matches are getting more exciting. What should I do? If i keep waking up late, it may be a habit and i may end up waking up super late for my papers next week. The hours that i have from morning to afternoon, can be well utilised by studying and revising for the mid year exam. And there is limited time left. Something has to be forgone. Opportunity cost is incurred.

2008-06-18T18:05:00.002+08:00

She has been a sweetener to my eyes since i first know her last year. I go to school and i will start looking for her. She gives me the motivation. Despite the comments by my friends, usually displeasing, i still hold my interest in her. She's my engine. She is the one who keeps me moving, and keep moving. I guess this crush is getting stronger and i seriously hope it would not be so strong that it would be hard for me to forget her after JC. I know, it's utterly and let me emphasize, IMPOSSIBLE to get her as my partner. Of course, i really really really wish she could be mine. However there are thousands of factors and reasons why it is not ideal for us to be together. I was on my way back home in the bus just now. I didn't notice she was in the bus as well. She even walked past me to get to the seat which happened to be behind mine. Until it was time for me to alight, i didn't really look at her but i could see that it was her from the profile of her. And her head was tilted at an angle such that she was looking at me. I am positive of that. I should have looked at her and smiled. This chance will not come by very often. And i just missed it. Sigh.

2008-06-13T00:19:00.002+08:00

Hello! The moment has come. For me to legal. I'm 18. That means, i can have SEX!!! Haha. No worries people, i'm just kidding. It is a brand new start for me as i'm progressing up the maturity level. And i guess the first thing i'm gonna do is to register for the basic theory test. Driving licence, yo. I'm going get it over with as soon as possible so that i can drive my dad's car to school during A levels. Haha. It is deemed to be impossible. Anyway, i would like to thank those who bothered to send me an sms comprising of a birthday wish. Thanks a lot. You guys have a good day.

2008-06-09T21:07:00.000+08:00

Dude, you just pissed the fuckin' hell off me, you hear that!!???

2008-06-04T14:58:00.002+08:00

Gosh, what have i been doing for the past few days? Simply, NOTHING!!! I didn't even study. Actually, i wanted to but whenever i was about to take my notes, it's where the distraction comes in: Laptop, tv, etc. I gotta start revising now. So what subject am i going to start on? Maybe math. Ok, then it'll be math.

2008-05-29T18:15:00.001+08:00

I just went for the medical today. Many people expected me to get PES A. But guess what, I got PES B. You know why? Simply because "i give you PES B, because you're a bit skinny", said the doctor-in-charge. I was like, what the hell!? I was doing perfectly fine for the other medical stations and just because of one factor that could be changed over time, i was given PES B? Well, you see, this weight issue can be solved over time. That's because, it's already in our genes. Just like my father, he was underweight when he was at my age. But the moment he reach the 20s or 30s, his weight totally blasted up to an extent that it's within the acceptable weight range. Maybe that's what i'm going to encounter in the future. I can't be given PES B just because i'm underweight. I assure you that i'm able to perform any combat operations and weight is not an issue here. I'm not saying that i'm very capable of doing everything, neither am i self-praising. I consulted my friend and he said that we can request for a change of PES status which i'm not so certain about. God!!! I realise that your PES status is only determined by the doctor in the 2nd last station of the whole medical assessment. So no matter how well you perform in the other medical stations, it's up to that particular person.

2008-05-23T23:11:00.002+08:00

I was invited to play street soccer with my fellow secondary friends tonight. It felt really great because it was a reunion and i was glad upon seeing them. The moment i stepped into the court, it was already time for us to leave the court simply because someone else had booked the court. We then decided to make our way to the street soccer court in Pending. We expected to see some 'ah-bengs' there and we were right. And it seemed that it was fun playing with them after all. Despite the strong body contacts made, i managed to get into their game and boost up my body for contacts with them. I think playing with them would be of a great value to me. However, what i'm displeased with was my unsatisfying performance. I just couldn't do anything whenever i have the ball in possession, and i lost some of it too. Maybe because it's been a long time since i last played within a restricted compound with walls surrounding. Anyway, glad to see you guys again.

2008-05-12T00:30:00.002+08:00

CONGRATS TO MAN UNITED FOR CLINCHING THE 10TH PREMIERSHIP TITLE

2008-05-07T20:55:00.003+08:00

Damn..i'm damn broke this week. Have been using a lot of cash. Class tee, math olympiad registration, new canvas shoe, class fund, debt. And in the end, i have almost no cash for my food and drinks for the next 2 days. I'm sure i'm gonna starve which i'm certain i can't hold on that long. Sure i have to borrow money again. I can't ask from my parents already because they have given me the money meant for class fund. So i don't wish to disturb them already. Sigh. Now, there's only one last thing to get. A new bag. I just wanna find a rather cheap, durable and desirable bag for myself and i guess i've found one. Maybe i'll buy it next week or the week after. I'm starting to feel like a girl: SHOPPING. I gotta refrain myself from abusing cash and instead save it for future use. Okay, after getting my bag, i'll not spend SO MUCH on unnecessary stuffs.

2008-05-07T01:14:00.002+08:00

I'm uncertain whether she's still mad at me. Well, i can say i did my part to at least initiate an apology. It's up to her to accept it. Even though she doesn't accept it, it's okay. It doesn't even matter anyway. We're both people of different worlds. What happens at that vicinity doesn't affect anything here. Anyway, just cheer up.

2008-04-26T21:51:00.001+08:00

Don't worry people, the upcoming contenders won't be that easy for them. Keep boosting that hope and stay optimistic.

2008-04-15T23:29:00.002+08:00

The moment i enter the vicinity, i would feast my eyes on you. For you give me the fuel to to keep my wheels goin'.

2008-04-04T22:07:00.004+08:00

bla..bla..bla.. After suntec city, we decided to visit the nearby memorial of those deceased during the japanese occupation. And took pictures that depict the CBD.

2008-04-01T21:36:00.002+08:00

I was staring blankly into space. This time, i didn't intend to look for her. All of a sudden, she walks by. Cutting through the normal of my eye's projection. She was like wanted me to look. Thus i looked at her. And she smiled. And i gave her one too. =)

2008-04-01T21:23:00.004+08:00

I've have been granted a reprieve. So do my friends.